People can try convince me all they want, that there is only one place, and one soulmate for each of us. Our destiny, waiting for us just around the corner. Why not two, three or 5? (Threesomes are proven to give so much joy! ) If it’s true, why people migrate so much, seeking bigger and better future… I’m not saying we shouldn’t stay and live where we were born, but what if some of us were born to move away, and spread the word about how great is the place we came from? I wonder how many of my friends from back home is living abroad or overseas at the moment. One day I’ll sit down and check. Off the top of my head I can at least count 20. ( I hope you’re reading this! )
In my early childhood and pre-teen years , I didn’t think twice about where this life is going to take me. All I wanted to do was to have fun, explore caves, climb trees and watch magnificent nature in its glory – plants, insects, wild animals, birds or pets, living their life. And attempt to play with them. Sometimes, bringing them home injured, Sometimes accidentally killing them. Oh nahhh wait, that was my sister. All I cared about was Matchbox, My little Pony and then Spice Girls. Anyhow.
I recall High school as a really long and sometimes sunny corridor. Which was actually a maze, that I couldn’t get out of. A struggle. I felt like a character from a greek tragicomedy. Happy outside, but dying on the inside. Not literally of course. I was dying to stop being pressured to learn things I didn’t want or needed. It didn’t matter that I wasn’t sure what I want to do with myself, or where to go. I just wanted to get out of there!
If you asked me today: Where do you see yourself 5 years ago? I’d probably say: I’m living in a house with 2 kids, an estranged husband and his parents. Most likely working as a travel consultant. And I have 3 lovers, each in different country 😉 That’s if I stayed where I was. Though I always had a feeling, that I’ll end up somewhere weird. My love for tourism and foreign languages seemed enough to feel obliged to conquer the world. Especially, when everyone around me started getting married and having kids. And who knows me well, knows that I’m not a fan of kids. Unless they’re mine. But… I don’t have any :-D.
And then opportunity came so I left. I miss home terribly at the moment but having Skype makes everything easier and worth the hassle.
My idea of how to be happier and healthier only shaped around a month ago. Before I start talking about my journey, I admit, I could go on on on about how miserable and how challenging the last two years has been. Drama sells better. But it was my fault that I gave in to that negative mind set and damaging lifestyle. I could also go on and on about how I’m still not certain where I’ll end up permanently. I do know where I want to be, however it’s 60% up to me, 20% up to immigration, 10% up to faith and 10% up to luck 😉 The idea is simple: Eat well, think positive and surround yourself with happy people. And remember. It’s important to know where you’re going, and that you ARE going alone. Even if you’re not.
So here I am. Living upside down, away from my Family and Friends but happier and healthier than ever before. And it’s only the beginning….
Love ❤ Gacia