Soon I’ll be 31 years Old……

Soon I’ll be 31 years Old……

Just recently I was trying to pick myself up from all the mistakes from the past, and it became obvious, that no matter how hard I try, life will never be perfect. I can only dream of better times to come, better food to eat, better clothes to wear. Or I can accept it ¬†for what it is, embrace it, and then it will all get easier to handle…

NO IT WON’T………….. Ask anyone. Married, engaged, single…. we are all equally confused. Why? Because morals in XXI century turned to stone. No one knows what’s going on yet everyone is trying to prove there is hope. “nadzieja jest matka glupich” some would say. I say: hope is the only thing keeps us all alive. We traveled to The Moon for God’s sake! That has to mean something.

I’ve only recently graduated and got my Diploma in Dental Technology. Hell yes I feel Proud. Hell yes I know it was worth it. But did it change who I am.? No.

It just made me more aware that there are things I thought were impossible for me to do, yet I accomplished them. Pursue your dreams.


love ‚̧ Gacia


Healthy Is sexy but damn hard to follow!!

Healthy Is sexy but damn hard to follow!!

Today I want to tell you a story about a girl who decided to change her life in one day. Quit all the bad habits, and become happy and healthy for the rest of eternity. And she did!! And it felt great. She knew she could do anything after reorganising her life, quitting smoking, slowly losing weight, and eating real food. Or didn’t she?

While changing your habits is doable and very satisfying, maintaining it for longer than 2-3 months might be tricky. As a girl who is always on diet, yet still had gained weight in the last 10 years, she knew first hand what hormones do to your brain.( Don’t mess with your menstrual cycle!). And that if your brain wants something, it will make sure you get it for him.

This is why support is so important in this stage.¬†Deep down we all¬†know what to do. But it’s soo easy to succumb and go back to the old habits, only to realize that: “Whoops I did it again”. Surrounding yourself with people you love, and most importantly who love you, and want you to succeed is the key. And I’m saying it from my own¬†experience. No matter how much YOU think YOU support and believe in yourself – it’s not enough. ‘Cos that time of the month will come, and you will feel lazy, and tired and craving bad food. And you will give up every second day.

Women know too well that when you hit a wall, especially when trying to lose weight, motivation disappears instantly, as if it knew who’s fault is it for letting you down.

What else can we do to push forward when all we want to do is lay in bed and eat pizza or have a smoke? Here my list. i look at it whenever I doubt my abilities to succeed:

  1. Look in the mirror everyday. Look at yourself and think about what you like and if you don’t like something, think of what you can do to change it. ¬† ¬†¬† And then say – I LOVE YOU.¬†
  2. Don’t be too harsh on yourself. If you fall, dust yourself off and get up. We all make mistakes, but don’t let them define you.
  3. Talk to yourself daily and ask yourself what do you want to be, and how do you feel about yourself right now.
  4. Set a short-term goal or at least a plan, that is easy to follow. But if you don’t achieve it, don’t stress. Set another one and keep pushing.
  5. Take it one step at the time. If something doesn’t feel right – DON’T DO IT
  6. SPOIL¬†yourself at least once a week. Go eat breakfast in your favourite cafe, watch a movie eating a big bag of popcorn, or get a massage. Whatever makes you happy. Don’t feel like trying to be happy and healthy is a chore. Benefits of it are so much better that you feel right now, and you know it!
  7. Last but not least РMake love Not war. As cliché as this may sound РAnger destroys positive thinking and makes it easier to give up.

We all have read lists and tips like that. And we all think we know better than our mothers, about what’s good for us. Well – guess what. NO, We don’t. So get up and move that ass and do your research on health and pick up the phone, call your Mum and tell her you LOVE her!

Love ‚̧ Gacia

The grass is always greener over there. Can friendship change the way you take care of your lawn? ūüĆĪ

The grass is always greener over there. Can friendship change the way you take care of your lawn? ūüĆĪ

It is now 2015 and the world is our oyster. We have technology we would have not even dreamt of 30 years ago,¬†advanced science projects, astronauts landing on the Moon and Mars. Yet we still can’t figure out what we want and what’s good for us. Technically we do. But choosing otherwise because we don’t like changes, we’ve got no one to encourage us, or we’re just too busy waiting for a¬†better moment, better times. We don’t always enjoy what we’re given. We want more, or we want something different. Or something that Joe or Susie has.

And then there is that migration situation¬†I’ve written¬†about in my earlier post. There’s not a country in the world,¬†where¬†its¬†citizens don’t complain about politics, weather, media etc…. Europeans want to live in the¬†US or¬†Australia, Australians want to live in¬†England or¬†Canada, only Americans don’t really want to move anywhere. Unless it’s interstate. Why is the grass always greener? Why can’t we just hydrate and water it regularly, so no one is envious of the neighbours’ loan.

I¬†myself, spent endless time playing a waiting game. Because NOW and HERE¬†was never good enough. I am lazy, I admit. But the choices I that I’ve made it my past led me to this moment. I can now say that I am content. I wasn’t before, and¬†I’ve only learned that word two months ago anyway, from a mate who’s a perfect example of a content person. As long as he’s happy with himself, nothing else matters. Talking to¬†him made me realize, that the past is shaping us in the way we are meant to be. Regardless of how tough, ruthless or unfair you think it was. It made you who you are. And people who surround you do too. My flatmates are another very good influence to my well being. Different age, different gender, but similar views. One works away, but is the happiest girl I’ve met in a long time. And she talks about being happy all the time. At first I was a bit suspicious if she’s not just constantly high but no ūüôā¬†She’s just happy. Drama queens, gossip goats and so on… they are all around us but we shouldn’t follow them. The other flatmate may not be as happy all the time , but he’s a lot like me when it comes to expressing opinions and¬†being assertive, so we get along very well. We got drunk together and my previous flatmate¬†on the day he was just viewing the room, so he had to sleep on the couch. ūüôā

I am quite difficult when it comes to friendship. I have a lot of colleagues here, but most of my good friends has left Australia or stayed back home. Best friend lives in Dublin. I hate the distance between me and my family, and friends. But despite all that, I actually feel so much closer to them. I share with my life and emotions a lot more.

Staying in touch is hard when time difference is 7-8 hours but it’s possible. There’s a few friends, that I don’t talk to very often, but I know it won’t change our bond. And I don’t think it’s anyone’s fault. Contact requires effort, and our lives get busier and crazier every day. Those friends¬†will still be one of the first people I will go to see when I’m back next year. And compare how green is the grass where they live.

The grass on my invisible loan is neon green, open 24/7. And everyone is invited. There’s no ” do not walk ” sign on it ūüôā

Love ‚̧ Gacia

Habits, addictions or both? Good vs badūüėá

Habits, addictions or both? Good vs badūüėá

Oh finally after a long busy week here it is : -) !

Today let’s talk business¬†– Addictions. According to¬†scientific studies, millions of people are addicted to something. Either it’s drugs, alcohol, cigarettes, food, internet or mobile phones. Some of us have addictive personality, some not. Take me as an example ūüėČ All my life I was swapping one addiction for another. Sometimes it was love, other times¬†alcohol or internet. And in the background for the last 12 years, it was cigarettes. And I’ve ALWAYS had an excuse, ready to fire up to whoever would try to question my choices, or to change my mind up. Most of the time, I was¬†excusing MYSELF from why I can’t quit smoking (I’ll¬†put on weight), internet ( how will I know what my ex is doing) , Candy Crush (….) and alcohol (it’s the last pleasure next too food, that I have left in this empty life of mine)…

Until finally one day, around 6 weeks ago, ¬†I decided to quit most of¬†my bad habits at once, and cut down on what’s¬†left.

I could never imagine living a day without my cell phone before. And I was just about to buy a new one, but decided to wait til next month. My Birthday is coming soon and I’m allowing¬†myself to buy something nice and stop being stingy. Anyhow,¬†Next minute… my current¬†phone broke down. On a Friday night… I wasn’t happy about it but I wasn’t panicking either, as I probably would 6 months ago…. It’s now Friday again and I’m still without that phone and I’m totally fine. The one I’m using as a replacement is not updated, therefore I can’t use it as efficiently, in addition I don’t have any recent phone numbers, ¬†but at least people can contact me. I could go without a phone much longer but I thought to myself: what if¬†the love of my life is trying to call me and I’m out of reach??????!¬†Still waiting for that to happen…

So, how is my change going? It’s hard. First enthusiasm has faded a bit, vicious menstrual hormones are kicking in demanding KFC, bottle of whiskey and a companion to do some fun stuff together after dark… However tempting, I know that if I cave in now, I will never achieve my goals and will forever be miserable and disappointed with myself. I’ve been doing that for two years, and where did it get me? To the land where no one is ever happy, only numb with pain and with a fake smile number five on their face. And although on the surface it seems that I was rewarding myself after a long, hard day, deep down I knew I was only pushing my real happiness further away from me.

I started thinking of addictions as friends of mine just then. And why did I even thought of that in the first place?

I realized, that,¬†I now¬†have new addictions and habits. Not all off them 100% good but much better than before. I still love tv, although now I mostly watch health and weight documentaries and how to live happily ever after. I want to read more, and exercise daily but that’s a long process and I’m taking baby steps.¬†The plan is¬†long term, so I’m trying not to overwhelm myself. I juice a lot, can’t fit my shopping in the fridge. I smile and I go to the movies, massage or for a steak special whenever I feel like it and not asking anyone to join me. because I can. And it’s fun. I’m finally happy to be on my own so why should I hide it behind close doors. ( All these happy couples are probably arguing constantly out there anyway ūüėČ )

Nonetheless, it’s a long and bumpy ride. After all, getting rid of bad habits that make us feel great is difficult, but I’m finally managing my needs and desires without feeling like I’m punishing myself. I’m going into week¬†7 of my new lifestyle, and even though it’s tough and lonely sometimes, I’m nowhere near giving up. And I’m doing it SOBER!! ūüėČ

We are Citizens of the World ūüĆŹ

We are Citizens of the World ūüĆŹ

People can¬†try¬†convince me all they¬†want, that there is only¬†one place, and one soulmate¬†for each of us. Our destiny, waiting for us just around the corner. Why not two, three or 5? (Threesomes are proven to give so much joy! ) If it’s¬†true, why people migrate so much, seeking bigger and better¬†future… I’m not saying we shouldn’t stay and live where we were born, but what if some of us were¬†born to move away, and spread the word about how great is the place we¬†came from?¬†I wonder how many of my friends from back home is living abroad or overseas at the moment. One day I’ll sit down and check.¬†Off the top of my head I can at least count 20. ( I hope you’re reading this! )

In my early childhood and pre-teen years , I didn’t think¬†twice about where this life is going to take me. All I wanted to do was to have fun, explore caves, climb trees and watch magnificent nature in its glory – plants, insects, wild animals, birds or pets, living their life. And¬†attempt to play with them. Sometimes, bringing them home injured, Sometimes¬†accidentally killing¬†them. Oh nahhh wait, that was my sister. All I cared about was Matchbox, My little Pony and then Spice Girls.¬†Anyhow.

I recall High school as a really long and sometimes sunny corridor. Which¬†was actually a maze, that I couldn’t get out of. A¬†struggle. I felt¬†like a character from a greek tragicomedy. Happy outside, but dying on the inside. Not literally of course. I was dying to stop being pressured to learn things I didn’t want or needed. It didn’t matter that¬†I wasn’t sure what I want to do with myself, or¬†where to go. I just wanted to get out of there!

If you asked me today: Where do you see yourself 5 years ago? I’d probably say: I’m living in a house with¬†2¬†kids, an estranged husband and his parents.¬†Most likely working as a travel consultant. And I have¬†3 lovers, each in different country ūüėČ That’s if I stayed where I was. Though I always had a feeling, that I’ll end up somewhere weird. My love for tourism and foreign languages seemed enough to feel¬†obliged to conquer the world. Especially, when everyone around me started getting¬†married and having kids. And who knows me well, knows that I’m not a fan of kids. Unless they’re mine. But… I don’t have any :-D.

And then opportunity came so I left. I miss home terribly at the moment but having Skype makes everything easier and worth the hassle.

My idea of how to be happier and healthier¬†only shaped around a month ago. Before I start talking about my journey, I admit, I could go on on on about how miserable¬†and how challenging the last two years has been. Drama sells better. But it was my fault that I gave in to that negative mind set and damaging lifestyle.¬†I could also go on and on about¬†how I’m still not certain where I’ll end up permanently. I do know where I want to be, however it’s 60% up to me, 20% up to immigration, 10% up to faith and 10% up to luck ūüėČ The idea is simple: Eat well, think positive and surround yourself with happy people.¬†And remember. It’s¬†important to know where you’re going, and that you ARE going alone. Even if you’re not.

So here I am. Living upside down, away from my Family and Friends but happier and healthier than¬†ever before. And it’s only the beginning….

Love ‚̧ Gacia


Oh, it’s just you Broken Heart. I’ve been waiting for you to show upūüíĒ

Oh, it’s just you Broken Heart. I’ve been waiting for you to show upūüíĒ

I have never given much thought to how does it feel to be unhappy. Since being a little blondie cherub, my life was a bliss. I wasn’t getting too spoilt, there was not much Mum could spoil us with in the 1980’s and going into 90’s. But spoilt enough to feel¬†loved, satisfied and very happy. Regardless of¬†my parents working very hard and often being away, to make our life better than the day/month/year before. And so we can go on holiday every year.

(We were getting exactly that. I think this is why I am not writing a travelling blog. Because I’ve travelled around Europe so much when I was younger, that my only dream for the future was to¬†settle down somewhere nice, have a family, and live happily ever after. I actually hated Venice for years to come, after visiting it 5 times as a kid ūüôā ).

I was living that dream through all my teenage years, had great friends, amazing career in making, and a¬†long term relationship, reportedly successful (2 yrs engaged), until one¬†day I woke up and it clicked. It¬†wasn’t what I wanted anymore. Emphasis on I. And truthfully, it wasn’t what I wanted for a long time. I just didn’t have enough self confidence, strength, courage or vodka to admit it to myself, not to mention to my fiance at the time. I wasn’t unhappy though, I was…. bored. My first New Year’s Eve weekend away on my own, with close friends, was the best party I’ve ever had. Dancing all night like there’s no tomorrow, watching and shooting fireworks, wearing only a sleeveless dress, although¬†it was -10¬į¬†C and snowing. Because finally I didn’t have to worry about anyone but me. And because I was drunk. I was living the dream¬†again, and it went on in Australia. Single, fabulous and invincible…¬†until ¬†2013.

In 2012, I’ve met what I thought was, the love of my life. I still smile thinking about it, but now I know it was only a sample of what love can be! ‚̧ Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine, that it’s going to take me this¬†long to get over someone. And that the upcoming pain¬†will be¬†so overwhelming, it’s almost physical. Nor I ever imagined it was possible to cry with no tears or without making a sound. I thought I knew everything and anything I needed to know about relationships, and about how to make others happy.

When you feel like you’re on top of the world, thinking your life cannot possibly get any better, think again.

Is there¬†something like ” loving someone too much”. ? I don’t believe so.

Some would say – poor choices… too much drama… too little trust. I would say: It’s loving the wrong someone.¬†Love yourself first. It’s not¬†as easy as it sounds, but for the first time in 2 years, I finally fully understand¬†why what has happened to me, happened at all.

Love ‚̧ Gacia

Hi, I’m from Madagascar, and No, I won’t go home with you. ūüė≤

Hi, I’m from Madagascar, and No, I won’t go home with you. ūüė≤

¬† ¬† ¬†Marty the Zebra: I’m ten years old. My life is half over and I don’t even know if I’m black with white stripes or white with black stripes! ¬†

¬† ¬† ¬†Not a day goes by that I don’t smile when reminiscing all the shenanigans and ¬†weird ideas of some of my special friends. I was considered shy and quiet by most ¬†of my friends, very responsible by day and helpful by night. ¬†Drinking games, or ¬†falling asleep before the party even started? – No Way!! “Touring” around ¬†Northbridge in a paddy wagon, or calling up a mate¬†so they¬†google map you¬†to the ¬†nearest¬†bus stop? – Never!! Perth is a fast changing city, hence keeping up with new ¬†street directories IS¬†a mission! And all that while using the wrong side of the road in a first place! Shocking.

¬†There was only two places in the city that mattered anyway. I won’t use their names, not because they were somehow embarrassing. I like a bit of mystery.¬†¬†Besides, if you were there with me, you will¬†know exactly what I’m talking about. And if you weren’t, well –¬†keep on reading, maybe your nationality is amongst the greatest below.

Most of¬†my first¬†friends here, ( apart from the few¬†lovely poles I’ve harassed on nasza-klasa before coming to Perth) were Scottish. To this day I¬†can’t understand them 90% of the time.Being called a” highly intelligent, but lazy” student as a child, it took me by¬†surprise that¬†I¬†actually enjoyed all these new courses and situations I’m experiencing. I remember learning a lot of new sayings in different languages or becoming acquainted with Aussie slang. One day in Fremantle I overheard a public conversation/argument, where a guy kept yelling at his female companion. ” You can’t do this, you can’t do that” I later found out he was actually calling her a cunt. ( tŇāum.pol.¬†– niecenzuralne sŇāowo; patrz: google).

It was Japanese that became one of my favorites. “konichiwa”,”tata ma¬†yaya” ,”kanako yako tako.” and many more. I wish I could remember what those mean ūüôā My guess is: Hello,¬†You’re not from Madagascar, but I will go home with you anyway.

Having made friendships with people from around the world, you quickly learn 3 things :

1. who to keep close: friends

2. who to keep closer: enemies

3. who to avoid at all cost:¬†Polish, Czech, German, Swiss German, Italian, Swiss Italian, French, Swiss French, Hungarian, Slovak, Hungarian sausage, Scottish, Irish, English, Norwegian, Canadian, Russian, Japanese, Indonesian, Mauritian, Brazilian, Taiwanese, Malaysian,¬†Australian, Colombian, Madagascarian… In no particular ¬†order. ( sorry if I missed anyone).

At the time it did not occur to me,¬†that maybe it’s not them, but¬†me.¬†¬†It’s nice to finally¬†sit down, open your eyes, and see how flawed your own ass really was. Comfortable – yes, perfect – no.¬†But happy to say that¬†my ass is now perfect.

End of story… ūüėČ

Love ‚̧ Gacia

Alex the Lion: 27, 28, 29, 30. Hmm, 30 black and only 29 white, looks like you’re black with white stripes after all. Dilemma solved. Good night!

6 years in Australia!ūüéą

6 years in Australia!ūüéą

I can’t believe it’s been that long since I’ve arrived here, on a 6 months visa, looking for some fun and maybe an idea for the future. And when it was the time to leave, I called my mum and asked how much loose change they have, because I refuse to go home. Little did I know that I will be staying for another 5 years

6 years full of adventures, dancing, drinking, laughter, ups and downs, tears of joy, tears of heartache… After all that, and 4 different certificates and diplomas later, let me tell you: Nothing worth fighting for comes easy. Motivation helps, but won’t be enough. Support system is essential. Yourself – self confidence, family and friends.

If I had breakdowns, or wanted to pack and piss off home, it was¬†not because I was missing home or I couldn’t cope with my workload and sudden lifestyle change.

In fact, first year and a half I’ve spent partying, socializing, living with $7 left on my account and still being the happiest chick on the planet. But then I had to move on and move out from my uncle’s safe haven; all inclusive with food and¬†rent. It hurt for a while, but oh dear, I finally realized what struggle is.¬†Budgeting, planning ahead and self control. Things like thinking twice before taking a taxi from CBD to Joondalup or talking to randoms on the street. Let me just say – Nor it’s cheap or safe.

Surprisingly I had a lot more money after moving out and starting sharing a house with a friend. Long story short I had some money saved up for emergencies and extra occasions and few hundreds for rent and bills; whereas and the rest would evaporate in smokes or got drowned in booze. Happy vibe happy life. Carefree. Not a worry in the world. Oh, apart from attendance at school, maybe. Sorry Mum! ( Never a keen student )….. ūüėČ

to be continued….

Love ‚̧ Gacia

It’s finally here! ‚ô™

It’s finally here! ‚ô™

The idea of blogging was born long time ago. Since I can remember, I always enjoyed writing and sharing my point of view with others. But as my life was changing every day for the last 6 years, I often seemed too busy or too uninterested to actually take it up.

I no longer feel that way so here it is, my first post on a brand new blog. It will take me a while to wrap my head around how to do it properly but i promise you won’t be disappointed. At this point I am only talking to myself but I hope it will change soon.

My main focus here will be on what’s best in my life and around me at the moment, as well as sharing ideas for healthy and happy living. I actually have a whole list of topics I’d like to talk about, but can’t do everything at once ūüôā

Get amongst it!

ps : Originally I had prepared a polish version of that post, but after a consultation with my professor Ms Idzik, I’ve decided to stick to English. I offer translation if needed (Mum, you need to learn English so I can’t help you haha), but I’m sure it won’t be an issue for many.


Love ‚̧ Gacia